9/27/2006 10:38:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
I’ve been feeling the need for change lately. Big change. To what, I’m not exactly sure. I just know I feel ... restless. That’s about the only way I can explain it. And I’ve felt that way for quite some time. My personal life is good - husband and the kids. I need to clean the basement and water my plants more often, but other than that I’m doing well and I’m content. My job still sucks though. Even though I get paid very well, I’m still so very unhappy there. I’ve been dreaming of getting a Class A CDL and becoming a dump truck driver. Or I could go up the street and become a bartender. That would be great fun. An assembly line worker. Opening a grocery store in Lyon, Missouri (there really is one for sale!) Anything, really. My insurance world is changing and I really don’t feel like embracing that change. I’m ready to turn in my briefcase for a backpack. Not necessarily a return to campus, but a proverbial backpack. Like changing in the Manolo Blahniks for Nike Shocks. The pantyhose for funny looking ankle socks. The skirt for a well worn pair of Levi’s. Is this a phase I’m going through? What if I trade the suit jacket for an AC/DC T-shirt and find I’m completely unhappy in a year? Or worse, what if I totally ruin everything I’ve worked so hard for financially? Or what if I’m too old? All I know is I want a change and I don’t mean insurance plan change because one insurance company is buying another and they’re redoing all of the benefits. We’re supposed to be learning and studying all these new plans and I can’t seem to make myself do it. I just don’t care. I’ve come to this complacency stage and it’s so unlike me in my job. What do I do? I’m not sure, I just know I can’t keep going like I am and stay sane. There’s only so much of insurance deductibles and coinsurance one can stand.

9/14/2006 02:48:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »